GQ: That’s a problem with writing - as soon as you go to print, something will appear from the past that slightly alters the details.
PH: That’s why I realised that you can’t start interviewing a load of different people for your book. You’re better off doing it howyouremember because you get nowhere otherwise. Everybody has a different idea of the truth. Who’s to say, unless you’ve got film of it, what’s the truth?
—Peter Hook, GQ
The tall one said, “Is he gonna be a problem?” and the first one, the Steve Almond-looking one, said, “It’s some fat guy. It’s always the fucking fat guy.”
My essay “Fat Guy” is over at Hobart this week.
Hamilton Nolan, “Your Doctor Is Probably Not Fat-Shaming You.”
1. There are a few well-known websites that pat themselves on the back for being progressive and then well, fat people, they did it to themselves and since everyone else has to look at it all the time, unlike drugs, alcohol, or cigarettes if you have Tic Tacs? Just…ew. Gross! LOL!
2. I have NEVER had an MD suggest a weight loss option that was effective. Here are the suggestions I got from physicians over more than a decade:
- Weight Watchers
- Jenny Craig
- stop eating candy when I already had stopped eating candy
That’s it. In other words, many MDs know as much about weight loss as anyone who watches commercials on New Year’s Day. Sometlmes less.
2a. It was only after I went to an endocrinologist and a nutritionist that I learned what’s amounted to be an exact weight loss formula for me, easily thwarted by factors other than my laziness. If you weren’t at those appointments with me, you do not know what my deal is. You do not know what anyone’s deal is. You may not even know what your own deal is. I’ve seen plenty of Internet comments that suggest that last one, especially.
3. It took me ALMOST TWENTY YEARS to find a physician and a gynecologist who both understand that fat people know they are fat, and deal with it every single minute of every single day. They both understand that pointing out the obvious over and over again is infinitely less productive than encouragement and motivation.
3a. Know what I used to do after I came home from doctor’s appointments where I was told what I already knew, and that I should really really look into an eating program that ultimately didn’t work for me at all? I’d eat cookies. I was far, far from alone in this practice.
4. Quotes selectively clipped from XOJane articles? No. Anyone not familiar with what obese people can face when they try to take care of their health should consider looking at the testimonials for “fat-friendly” medical professionals on this site. A number of them offer a glimpse into what patients experienced *before* finding compatible health care professionals. If you want to read stories without happy endings, email me and I’ll send you links. God knows there are enough of them.
At the Waif’s Home he was taught to play trumpet.
"Of course, the actors are shooting completely out of sequence. But that’s one of the benefits of rehearsal. I rehearse for a minimum of two weeks, sometimes three, depending on the complexity of the characters. We had no money to make 12 Angry Men. The budget was $350,000. That’s right: $350,000. Once a chair was lit, everything that took place in that chair was shot. Well, not quite. We went around the room three times: once for normal light, a second time for the rain clouds gathering, which changed the quality of the light coming from the outside, and the third time when the overhead lights were turned on. Lee Cobb arguing with Henry Fonda would obviously have shots of Fonda (against wall C) and shots of Cobb (against wall A). They were shot seven or eight days apart. It meant, of course, that I had to have a perfect emotional memory of the intensity reached by Lee Cobb seven days earlier. But that’s where rehearsals were invaluable. After two weeks of rehearsal, I had a complete graph in my head of where I wanted each level of emotion in the movie to be. We finished in nineteen days (a day under schedule) and were $1,000 under budget.”
Sidney Lumet, Making Movies
Benzaiten with lute and dragon. First day outlining. Next time out we’ll add the dragon’s body.
Tattoo by Chris Trevino.